My walk with the Lord started while I was a teenager. While I always knew there was a God, I didn’t understood what it meant to have a personal relationship with Him.
During the time my husband James was in the military, he began attending church and reading his Bible.
When his enlistment ended, we began to attend a church in Red Bluff where we were both baptized. Even though we took this big step, I did not really understand what it meant. I wanted to be obedient, and it seemed like the right thing to do. I watched James relationship with the Lord develop a lot faster than mine. Nevertheless, he was always encouraging to keep seeking. Somehow, a few years later, our interest faded, and we slipped away into old behaviors. During that time my best friend kept talking about Jesus and invited us to come back to church. We began attending a church in Red Bluff once more.
One Sunday my husband made an altar call where he rededicated his life to the Lord. Although I wanted to follow, something held me back. I still was not ready. However, I kept watching and listening, but I continued to fight the Holy Spirit for a few months. I just was not ready for my life to change in the way I knew it would.
Then one afternoon while watching a play at my Church called “Heaven or Hell,” I felt the Power of the Holy Spirit and heard God clearly say that, “I needed Him.” Right then and there, I decided to truly give my life to the Lord, and to surrender it all over to His care.
Although, on occasion I have backslid and gone astray from the Lord, one of my favorite quotes that helps me to ask for and accept forgiveness is, “I’m not a Christian because I am strong and have it all together; I am a Christian because I am weak and admit I need a savior.” Those words are comfort to me in times of trouble. I know my Lord loves me and has more Grace than I can imagine.